What is your fascination with my forbidden closet of mystery?

-Stevo in SLC Punk after finding out his old friend is homeless.

So I was driving home from work and I got off 77 at exit 33 and there was a guy standing at the light with a sign that said "Homeless Vet Just Trying to Survive. Thank You." It really bothered me. I mean it really makes me upset to see people who have given everything for our country struggling to just get by.
But what makes me even more upset is that I couldn’t even look at him, I sat at the red light and messed with the radio... I don’t have any pressing calls on my time I could’ve driven him somewhere or bought him lunch. But I didn’t and that bothers me even more. I mean every one says don’t pick up hitchhikers right? But how many hitchhikers are actually homicidal maniacs and how many are just poor people trying to get somewhere? But every one just drives on by and leaves the poor guy standing there in the sun with his sign. They make excuses to them selves. 'Some one else will pick him up' 'I just don’t have the time' 'I would but....' I mean it’s not like I was the only one at that light there were probably 8 to 10 other cars there. But nobody gave him a ride.
It really makes me sad. I'm totally bummed out about it.

WARNING: Major ranting from now on. I apologize in advance.

Today has just been a crummy day all around. I had to get up at 6 and drive mike to school, work was awful because it is so hot out (92 degrees), Eric snapped at me for every stupid little thing he could think of (including giving him a dollar that was mysteriously expelled from a video game), I saw the homeless guy, I realized after I got all the way home that even though I asked Adam 4 times I never actually got my pay check... and we have no food in the house.

Blah... And another thing. Why are people so ridiculously stupid? I had this table at work today... I'm the hostess at a restaurant; so these people come in off the boat, as in they have been out on the water all morning, and they say they want a table out on the deck. So I take 'em out and get all the way down to the lower portion of our deck and he says "how bout under the canopy?" which means I get to walk all 6 of them back upstairs. So we go and I put the menus on a table under the canopy and he points at the 'ceiling' and says "can we sit under a fan?" so I move him over 2 tables, and under a fan. And they sit and I walk away.
I don’t even get back inside and he asks "can we move inside? I didn’t realize it was so hot out here."
It took all of my strength not to hit the guy. You've been out on your boat all morning with out the benefit of AC, in the sun, and you just didn’t notice that it was 90 fucking degrees? Not to mention we've been out here for 10 minutes trying to find a table that satisfies your requirements. People do this all the time... they come in from the parking lot and ask me what its like outside... YOU WERE JUST OUT IN THE PARKING LOT?! How do you not know? It drives me completely nuts.

And I don’t understand the whole I don’t want that table I want this table thing. My job is to seat people based on server sections so that everyone gets good service and none of the servers become overwhelmed by lots of tables or nothing to do. If you just got to sit where ever you wanted then my boss wouldn't be paying me $7.00 an hour to seat you. I would never go to a restaurant and tell the hostess I don’t want to sit here I want to sit over there. And they always say "I don’t mean to be a bother" or "Its not a problem is it" if I say it is a problem will you just sit where I tell you and shut up or will you go to the manager and tell him what a bitch I am because I didn’t let you move across the dining room for some ludicrous reason like "the chairs are more comfortable over there" look buddy they're all the same chairs... or my favorite "I don’t want to look at this bush."

There is plant by the deck at work; it’s the bane of my existence, because no one will sit by it. Apparently it obscures a portion of the view of the lake. It’s not a small bush; there are 3 tables that are near it. But it’s not like you can’t see anything except the bush. At any rate... I have had people wait an extra half hour or 45 minutes just because they don’t want to sit next to this god forsaken shrub. It’s ridiculous.

Yeah... and I have never EVER EVER in my life eaten at a restaurant that is good enough to wait 2 and a half hours for a table there. FUCK THAT! If I go to a restaurant and they say it’s gonna be more that 20 minutes I'm looking for a new place to eat. But people love the Rusty Rudder so much that they will wait 2 hours for a table... IT’S A FUCKING BAR PEOPLE! We serve bar food... crappy bar food... wings and burgers and spinach dip. And its expensive crappy bar food... $8.99 for a buffalo chicken wrap?! Its chicken tenders in buffalo sauce and lettuce in a tortilla. How much could that possibly cost them to make?

Oh my god… I’m sorry. I had a really bad day… I just needed to vent. I feel better now I think.

The onion rocks.

So today's post is going to be a little bit random because there is a lot of crap that I wanna catch up on.

1.) My Dad and Gina are movie stars... Revelations came out on April 16th and it rocked Lucasfilm's feeble minded world... ok maybe not but it was really awesome. Seeing my dad on the silver screen was probably the most exhilarating thing ever. Well I guess maybe seeing myself up there would be cooler but not by a whole lot. Anyway... Dad and Gina rocked the house. Gina took home best Actress at an Australian film festival, and Revelations as a whole took home Best Live action, Best editing, production design and visual effects. ROCK ON SHANE!! Coming up at Dragon Con they're entered in another festival.
I made mike's friends watch it and they talked through the whole thing. No appreciation. Bastards.

2.) In October I'm moving back to Jersey and applying to Rutgers and Georgian Court with the intention of getting a degree in Bio so I can teach. Should be fun.
I hope to teach at JMHS where I graduated from, I think it would be interesting to see it from another perspective.

3.) I am attempting to learn how to play Bass. If I could just get Louis to stop drinking and playing the basement theme from super Mario brothers on his guitar for 5 minutes. Oh yeah and figure out what he's saying. Don’t get me wrong I love Louis, but he stutters a lot... and combined with the thick southern accent I really don’t have a clue what the fuck he is talking about half the time. So I'm sort of teaching myself how to play base with the occasional hint from Louis. I can play Sober by Tool and I started learning the Fraggle Rock theme. But I really want Louis to teach me Limelight by Rush.
Oh yeah and I read Life the universe and everything again last night and this morning. I need to hide that book away in a box until I can finish all my other stuff. Every time I see it I'm like I'll just read for a little bit and the next thing I know I'm done with it. I can practically recite it from memory. It creeps Mike out when I quote it.
Anyway I think that’s all for now.
Post more later...

- Dad

Well I'm bringing up my Blog again for those of you who care... since I actually have time to post in it. And I actually have stuff to talk about.

Apparently Patrick's obsession for reading rubbed off on me because I haven't really been able to stop. Mike's mom gave me some stuff to read and some how I've managed to juggle 3 or 4 books at a time.
I finally got around to reading Richard Bach's Illusions which mom gave me like 3 years ago. It was very interesting. I made Mike's mom read it and I think she liked it too.
I also have managed to read the Hitchhikers Trilogy so many times that the books are falling apart. Not that they were in the best condition when I stole them from dad but still. (Sorry Dad I'll buy you hard cover copies for Christmas or something I promise.)
I've read Pandora by Anne Rice about 6 or 7 times, I love that book. And I also picked up one of her more erotic novels, Belinda which was interesting; I wasn't too big on the whole chick being only like 15 though.
Mike's mom gave me a book called Tuesdays with Morrie that I thoroughly enjoyed. It's about an old college professor who, in learning how to cope with death, teaches his former student how to live. It only took me about 2 hours total to read, which really boggled mike and his mom. It was sad and I cried a lot but it was definitely worth reading.

"Morrie's doctors guessed he had two years left. Morrie knew it was less. But my old professor had made a profound decision, one he began to construct the day he came out of the doctor's office with a sword hanging over his head. Do I wither up and disappear, or do I make the best of my time left? He had asked himself. He would not wither. He would not be ashamed of dying.Instead, he would make death his final project, the center point of his days. Since everyone was going to die, he could be of great value, right? He could be research. A human textbook. Study me in my slow and patient demise. Watch what happens to me. Learn with me. Morrie would walk that final bridge between life and death, and narrate the trip."

I also read An Autobiography of a Fat Bride which was hilarious and The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-Time which is about an autistic boy who sets out to find the killer of his neighbor’s dog...

"Chapters in books are usually given the cardinal numbers 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6 and so on. But I have decided to give my chapters prime numbers 2, 3, 5, 7, 11, 13 and so on because I like prime numbers...Prime numbers are what is left when you have taken all the patterns away. I think prime numbers are like life. They are very logical but you could never work out the rules, even if you spent all your time thinking about them."

She also gave me the New Testament of the bible which I stared at on my night table for a few days before actually starting. It was interesting. And I started a debate with her over whether or not Peter actually kills people.

From the Acts of the Apostles, chapter 5 the fraud of Ananias and Sapphira:

There was another man, however, called Ananias. He and his wife, Sapphira, agreed to sell a property; but with his wife's connivance he kept back part of the proceeds, and brought the rest and presented it to the apostles. "Ananias," Peter said "how can Satan have so possessed you that you should lie to the Holy Spirit and keep back part of the money from the land? While you still owned the land, wasn't it yours to keep, and after you sold it wasn't the money yours to do with as you liked? What put this scheme into your mind? It is not to men that you have lied, but to God." when he heard this Ananias fell down dead. This made a profound impression on all present. The younger men got up, wrapped the body in a sheet, carried it out and buried it.
About 3 hours later his wife came in, not knowing what had taken place. Peter challenged her, "tell me, was this the price you sold the land for?" "Yes," she said "that was the price." Peter then said, "So you and your husband have agreed to put the spirit of the lord to the test! What made you do it? You hear those footsteps? They have just been to bury your husband; they will carry you out too." Instantly she dropped dead at his feet.

Now I feel that, If Peter can touch a crippled man and he walks again, or go into the house where a woman has just died and she miraculously starts living again, then he killed these people. He chastises the guy for lying to the lord and he drops dead and he curses the woman and she drops dead. Dude! Peter is a murderer. Plain and simple.

So I call mike's mom and tell her about this and she starts freaking out. "Where’s my bible? I have to see this" "I can’t believe this" "where are my reading glasses?" "What chapter is it?"... So on and so on. And she finds it and reads it out loud and starts gasping... "Oh my god I've never seen that before" "I can’t believe this" "I'm gonna go ask Lou about it." "I'm going to have to ask father Brady about this at church on Sunday"
I thought it was pretty funny.

Anyway enough about the Bible. I'm reading Anna Karenina now another one Mike's mom gave me which I'm not too sure about. It doesn't seem to be going anywhere in particular yet. But mike's mom assures me that it’s all important and it’s really good. So I read on.

Also on my to read list are War of the Worlds by H. G. Wells, Anthem, and The Fountain Head by Ayn Rand, the rest of Democracy in America, The Time Traveler's Wife by Audrey Niffenegger and the rest of That Hideous Strength by C. S. Lewis.
I really want to get around to reading Atlas Shrugged and Job: a Comedy of Justice again too.
But I don’t know if I have the time.

Another major achievement! I finally got Mike to sit down and watch Black Adder so he actually gets half my jokes now. I'm very pleased with myself.

Why?

Seriously...

What am I missing here?

I am almost certain I will get in alot of trouble for this post but I need to understand. I have spent the last 13 hours flipping back and forth between cnn.com, cspan.org, foxnews.com, and msnbc.msn.com. I told mike that I wasn't going to bed until Kerry was president. I've spent the last 2 hours crying and sick to my stomach. I went to my dad's blog to see what he had to say...

"American Freedom:
Born July 4 1776
Killed November 3 2004"

He's right. Bush has done nothing but squash our civil liberties as much as possible and he will only continue to do so. Some one told me about a bumper sticker they saw that said, "It's okay I wasn't using my civil liberties anyway." I want one.


I just can't wrap my head around why anyone in their right mind would vote for Bush. And not just that… more people voted for him this time than last election. People who thought ‘that guy is a screw up’ last election are thinking ‘he’s a great guy’ in this one. It’s scary. He has done nothing good for our country. As far as the economy, he has screwed up at every turn. He has overspent the budget by ridiculous amounts to support a war on an intangible enemy.

Mike asked the people on one of his car forums what good bush has done and this was the response:
“Ok, one thing that he has done right........Well for the first time in their entire history, Women in Afghanistan are now allowed to go to school.Oh, one more thing.....For the first time since he came to power, text books in Iraqui schools no longer say that Saddam is the center of the universe.Oh yeah, one more thing......For the first time in their history, there was a democratic election in Afghanistan with a 95% voter turnout.Oh and one more thing.....There are going to be elections in Iraq on or around January.Dude, sounds like you have had your head buried in the sand in Iraq along with the Military jets that they buried”

Mike replied “George W. Bush's job title and description is "President of the United States of America", not president of the world. It is none of his concern whether people in Afghanistan and Iraq are free, or whether their educations are accurate and complete. He is supposed to be doing a job for the American people”

My head hurts thinking about how ignorant people can be. I was out on my balcony in my ‘not my president’ shirt and some guy called me a terrorist and gave me the finger. The people here in NC look at bush as their God for some reason. It makes me ill.

When the campaigning for this election began I was not a Kerry fan. But I can’t really find anything wrong with the guy… well except that he is a sleazy politician but unfortunately most presidential candidates are. He supports a woman’s right to choose, he is for gay marriage, and he doesn’t take every available opportunity to bash Bush. Though Bush gives Kerry a lot of ammo. Also he can speak, I don’t just mean that as bush is an idiot and can’t talk (which is true) but I mean that in the debates Kerry remained calm composed and collected while Bush was frazzled and just kept saying the same things over and over which usually ended up being ‘He’s lying’ or ‘another flip-flop’. Kerry knew where he stood and what he wanted to say while bush would just call him a liar and make no points about where he stands on the actual issues.
And yet people still claimed that he won the debates, even though in 2 of them he violated the rules more than once.
Those weren’t Debates people they were slaughters, and Kerry came out on top every single time.

I was on Bush’s web site last night checking things out. He has a whole area dedicated to flash games making fun of Kerry and articles bashing Kerry. He even has a Kerry Tracker which shows all the places Kerry has been campaigning recently. I’m sorry I was under the impression that he was a grown man running for President of the United States not a 4th grader.
Bush supporters also feel the need to bash Kerry and Kerry supporters on Kerry’s blog. People with screen names like ‘Bushisthebestpresidentever’ and ‘Ilovebush1’ feel the need to make childish comments and pick fights with people who are doing nothing more than discussing the polls and sending messages of encouragement to Kerry.
But no one can comment on Bush’s blog. I wish I could… of course I would be arrested or shot or something if I did.
Anyway. If someone could help me figure this out I would appreciate it greatly. I’m going to the store to buy more ginger ale.

"My heart, it joins a thousand, for my friend stopped running today."

And so it comes to this... $161 in car repairs and Rich and Trystan fighting in my comments section.

Well, here it is folks the drama bomb to end all drama bombs... actually its not. I'm done with this. This is the end of my blog. Thanks for your um... support... or something.

In my opinion it isn't worth it. This was supposed to be a place for me and my friends to discuss what was going on in our lives and now it's just a fucking mess. Chris doesn't even know it exists for Christ sake.

And mom, I went to pick up clothes twice, both times were because I needed pants for work. And I ended up working Matt's shift on Sunday so I was at work all day. And Joel told me that you weren't going to be home so there was no point in stopping by.

AND HEY LOWES PEOPLE MAYBE I COULD PAY MY MOM IF I COULD GET A PAY CHECK!!!!! I'll have been working for a month before I get my first check what kind of bullshit is that?

Other than that and the constant drama bombs, work is great. I actually hang out with people outside of work, which is cool. Poker nights are fun. I loose a lot but Ricky bought me in last time so technically I broke even. The guys are cool, the girls are kind of annoying but the guys are cool.

They're going to put me in box office soon. YAY! And Bill is leaving ... More YAY! There are rumors about Patrick getting promoted to house manager when Bill leaves... YAY!!!!!

Oh and Rich, my blog isn't a virtual insanity... that's a song lyric and a joke.

AVP comes out tonight ... I hope its good, but odds are its going to be terrible. I'm still waiting very impatiently for Resident Evil: Apocalypse to come out.

Anyway. I guess I'll end this now. I feel like I should put some meaningful quote or something... I have the Loki song stuck in my head though.

"I was born in battles fire and laid beside my mother's corpse
My toys the ravens of the field my lullaby's the screams of whores
But when the storm god you all praise walks the earth and shatters trees
You’ll huddle close beside my gift and whisper prayers beside the spit
And as the wood smoke turns and twists
You'll owe your lives to sly Loki." - the Loki song

"Do you ever get the feeling you've been cheated?" - Johnny Rotten

Mike said that to me the other day in the diner after telling me that he was going to join the winning team and vote for bush.
He better be kidding.

Sorry about the lack of posting recently, but I work all the time. And when I don't work I sleep because I work the late shift.

I got the job at the theater. Its cool. I think. All the guys were like "WOW a new girl and she's cute lets all try to get her into bed." and that sucks. I would take it as a compliment but they do it to every girl that ever worked there. I work a lot. And the pay is low but I have fun most of the time. I just don't like my supervisor Beth. She gets on my nerves a lot. Other than that it's pretty cool.
Rumors spread like wild fire though, I've only been there a week and a half and already people are saying shit about me and this kid Ricky.
Concessions is cool I guess.

DONT EAT MOVIE THEATER POPCORN!!!!!!!!!!

In fact don't eat anything there unless it comes in a sealed container. Ew.

I got into a car accident the other day. I was going down an exit ramp and hit a patch of sand. I started to skid and I panicked and hit the brakes. So I continued to skid and whacked the curb. Bent both driver side rims. Mom is mad and so is rich because it's their car. I bought new rims for it though. Mike delivered them while I was at work. She's mad because she thinks I was going some ungodly speed. But I wasn't I was only doing 45 or 50. But there is no convincing her. And they are convinced that I'm avoiding them because I'm staying at mikes house. But I told her before the accident that I was going to be here for 2 weeks to help take care of the dogs and the plants while his dad and Karen are in Equador.

And besides I work from 4:30 to 1 in the morning every night so even if I was sleeping at home she wouldn't ever see me she leaves at leaves at 9 for work and doesn't get home till 5 and she crashes at 10. So whatever. I gave her the key to the Mazda because I know they will never let me near it again and I paid for the damage. what else is there to talk about anyway.

The guy she took it to is telling her it may need framework, but that is a load of crap. I hit the wheels. If I was going to bend anything else it would be the suspension not the frame. But he's a mechanic not a body shop so he won't just lie to get more money out of her because he can't fix the frame anyway. So we'll see.

Anyway I'm going to walk the dogs and get food. I promise I will post tomorrow.

Oh it's true K8 is great. lol

Anyway, about the bouncing souls rocking the house... They do that thing.

So Brian White got arrested recently some kid named Brian Amsterdam lolz was in his car with weed. That sucked, I kinda found it funny for 2 reasons... a.) the kids last name is Amsterdam and b.) everything that happens to Brian white in his car is not his fault.

He was driving home from work and saw a deer in the road so he stopped and the deer smacked into his car...

He was driving down countyline rd and some lady ran a stop sign and smacked into him.

Some kid he barely knows gets in his car and has weed.

So now everyone is using the pot smoking guitarist John as a good example... John finds it funny.

 
moving right along I have sort of got a job at the movie theatre... Patrick was like "You're Hired!" so I'm gonna go talk to him about it tomorrow.

tonight me and mikey are going to rent the Bourne identity so I wont be completely lost when we go to see the Bourne supremacy.

gotta go change post more when I get home I guess.